Wednesday, February 8, 2012

thoughts about life

well i spilled the beans yesterday.
i am pregnant.
only 7 weeks 2 days to be exact.
many may say i'm silly for saying something so early.
a lot of people wait until the second trimester...
the magical 12 week mark.
for some that is the road they want to take.
i don't judge them or think weird of them for waiting.

this is my 6th pregnancy.
i have 3 living children.
one pregnancy ended with an early miscarriage,
6 months ago to be exact.
the other pregnancy... ended at 23 weeks

So where am i going with all of this?
hang in there, it may get confusing before it gets a little clearer!

the question for me is...
am i scared about this pregnancy?
do i dwell on this?

i have read many a blogs stating how they are scared to get attached to the pregnancy
in case anything happens... they don't want to talk about it or acknowledge it all that much.
that is totally their opinion and right.
i respect that and can relate.
however, i think that no matter how much you distance youself or choose not to get excited about the little things you are robbing yourself of the joy that God has given you in that little miracle.
because lets face it... know matter how much you "distance" yourself, you're already attached!

as a mother to 3 children.
i also can find myself in the anxiety state of mind of the, "what if's..."
i love these three little kids of mine and would be devastated if anything happened to them!
do i worry about my kids and their safety?
sure. probably more than i should.
do i dwell on the what if's.
no (well we all have our moments, but for the most part i don't dwell on them!).
we are robbed so much joy if we dwell on the, "what if's..." of life.
God did not want us to be worry warts...

Philippians 4:6

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 
worry, fear, anxiety is not from God... it is from the enemy.

as i'm typing this a friend many miles away is laying her 6 year old little boy to rest!
life isn't fair, nor are we guaranteed how much time we have here on earth!

so i say all of this because whether i have a miscarriage or someone i hold dear passes away.
they are both a gift from God.
so i am going to choose to celebrate this life today and not hold back!


Diana said...

I am so so so so happy for you guys. I admire your strength in the decision to celebrate what is happening now, when it is happening, regardless of the risk of "what if" in the future. Can't wait to see how things progress! Lots of blessings and hugs sent your way!

Dana @ Bungalow'56 said...

Such a lovely post Trisha. I like celebrating too. I had a miscarriage between Eldest and Middlest and we ended up telling everyone anyway because you need to support.
Many blessings sent to you and your whole family.

julie s said...

Congratulations Trisha! I found your blog the other day--so cute. You are talented! Your little Addie came up to me after the meeting at school last week. She thanked me for brining snacks and said the bars were very good. I was shocked at how mature and articulate she is--beyond most kindergarteners. You should have a bunch more because you really have the most adorable little kids. I'll pray for your pregnancy :)

A Little Of A Lot said...

Congrats !!! I can so relate to this post. I've been pregnant 7 times and have 3 living children. My last pregnancies I chose to share early on, the burden of being pregnant then suffering a loss and having to act like nothing happened afterwards was too big a burden for me to carry alone and so I chose to share knowing that I could ask for extra prayers early on and then if it ended in M/C I could turn to people for comfort or if things went well they were my cheerleading party early on. To each his own and we all react differently to our situations, there is no right or wrong way to handle it.
As for not getting attached I think as soon as the pregnancy test shows a + I'm attached.
I pray that all goes well for you and the queasies leave soon.
Much love xox