Monday, October 24, 2011

A Little Bit of Me

Yesterday I gave my testimony during the morning service at Church.
The whole weekend I felt like I was going to throw up.
Thankfully I did not :)
I wanted to share it with you.
Take what you want from it.
Maybe you are struggling with hearing God's voice?
Maybe you are a rockstar follower of Christ?
I struggle daily...
Here is a peek into my heart.

My name is Trisha. 
I have been married to Jeremy for 11 years. 
We have 3 living children Alaina, Addie and Levi… 
and we have two babes in Heaven…

I am a sinner. Saved by the Grace of Jesus.
I am finding out that it’s not just nice words to say,
to keep me out of Hell…
It is a commitment on my part, 
because He is already committed to me!
He chose me first.
So when I don’t feel His presence,
it’s because I’m not seeking His face.
When I don’t feel like He’s hearing my prayers…
Am I really bringing my heart’s desire to the foot of the cross?
When I am feeling alone in this world,
I am not remembering that God will never leave me nor forsake me. 
He thought greater of me to sacrifice His own son so that I may one day enter into His gates!

This year God has really stretched me.
I have grown in my faith and I am learning to rest in Him.

One of the things He has been teaching me is to not only believe in Jesus but to
Hear Him.
To Listen to Him.
And to Follow Him.

My pride often gets in the way of listening to what God is asking of me!
For a few years the Holy Spirit has been prompting me to confess sin in my life and to mend a few relationships in my past.
For awhile it seemed easier to just ignore it.
Sometimes the things he is asking of me seem so daunting… 
I justified it somehow that it will be easier to just keep it inside and not rid myself of sin.
I realize now that if I don’t seek forgiveness from others, 
it allows Satan to keep me shackled…
How am I confusing that as being easier?

Since my main goal is to constantly be ridding my life of sin… 
I decided that it was time to set my pride aside and do what He has been asking me to do.
I wrote two letters.
Apologizing for my actions.
Making no excuses for my behavior.
I sent them out.
After doing what God asked me to do
I felt a literal weight being lifted from me.
One of the girls hasn’t replied to my letter.
I may never hear back from her and that is okay.
I know that I followed what God had asked me to do.
The other girl did call me.
She didn’t even remember the incident!
She did tell me that it had inspired her to do the same and she too had since contacted people in her past.

Don’t we, as parents want our children to strive to be the very best?
When I stand before my Heavenly Father I want Him to say to me, 
“Well done my good and faithful servant!”
I don’t want to look back on life and regret not listening to His voice.
If God is asking something of you, please don’t wait another day to act on it! 
He doesn’t want you to have a miserable life. 
He wants to set you free.

Let me leave you with this verse… 
2 Corinthians 3:17 
Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.
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1 comment:

Jennifer said...

Hi!

I stumbled upon your blog and was very encouraged by your testimony and just daily posts/sharing of your walk :) I also love arts and crafts, and it's always a joy to find other artsy fartsy Christian bloggers :)

Jen from efootprints.com