Thursday, February 25, 2010

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Baby "i"pod

Since our last name begins with an I...
I thought it would be fun
to name our little babe
baby "i"pod :)

So here is the little bean
at 15 weeks and 6 days.
I have felt it move a few times.
Nothing crazy, just light kicks
and squirms...
Hoping it will pick up within 
the next week or two :)
I love that feeling!
I also get to have an ultrasound
this week!
We have never found out
the sex of any of our girls so 
we are really hoping to find
out what it is this time around:)
I will let you know!!!

Friday, February 19, 2010


***Warning: This is a long post with no pictures!***

I'm sure many of you have
opinions on the subject.
Especially if you have children!

When I was young and had no
commitments (children and husband)
I never gave it a whole lot of thought.
If I had to answer the question back
then, it would probably be.
Public school.

When I got married and the 
thoughts of starting a family
started popping up, as a woman
and one day mother. I started
thinking about a lot of things.
The color of the nursery,
and believe it or not schooling options.
If I had to answer the question back
then, it would've been homeschooling.
(I remember thinking that.)

When I had Alaina schooling was 
the farthest thing from my mind.
She was fighting for her life
in the NICU for 4 months.
Maybe I wouldn't have to even think
about school for her?!
But as my miracle grew and grew
so did the looming question of
what do I do for school?
After her diagnosis of Cerebral Palsy (CP)
we were immediately thrown into
thearpy and the Early On
system, (which is apart of school)
at age 2. At the time, that is what was
best for her. Primarily she received
therapy and some pre-pre-school stuff.
When I answered the question then...
I remember thinking I can't homeschool
now... she needs the school system.

Since then we found a school that
is made for kids with CP and
Spina Bifida, (motor delayed kids)
it is amazing. We enrolled her 
there full time! The only problem is
that it is a pre-K school and because
it is not funded by the state we
can't enroll her there for full-time
school. Plus it is VERY expensive
and an hour away from our house.
So this option is only for set aside 
therapy throughout the year.
 As a mom
that has a child with special needs
the enviroment of the school
is very important. I am still
dealing with the fact that my
child is handicap.
Worrying constantly about
her acceptance and ability
to perform well in school is
almost constant. Even though
all of the kids love her and
 she is doing well in all areas
except writing.
Maybe it's more my acceptance
I have issues with. I try so
hard to not let her see my fears.
Believe me when I say it
is slowly getting better, but
is still a battle I face!

Once again I was left with where do
I place her for Young 5's (basically a 
pre-school)? We visited a lot
of schools in our district &
several private Christian schools.
We found our favorite to be
at a Christian school.
She is currently enrolled there
and we like it a lot. The problem I
am having with it is the cost and
the fact that when I go there to
visit or help out, she is being carried 
from station to station within
the classroom and mostly
is having things done for
her, not giving her the full 
opportunity to accomplish things
by herself. While I worry about 
her independence and lack thereof.
I worry how she could rely on the
attitude that someone
will do it for me. I am seeing
it already. This is not acceptable.
I love all of the teachers and aides
in her classroom right now, and
think that they love Alaina and
want her to succeed. But in
reality do they want her to succeed as
much as I do?
That is my biggest question right now.

I (plus my husband) are the
only ones who have her absolute
best interest at heart regardless of
how nice and great the teacher or aide is!
With that being said 
I have decided to homeschool.
I am scared and nervous,
but also excited and can't wait to start!
The other postitives I am finding
with this is:
~that I would also
start Addie in Kindergarten too.
So I would only have one "curriculum"
to go through and they could team up
and help each other. Addie is VERY excited!
~I am going to have a 6 week old
when school starts. Who wants
to leave the house with an infant?
Not me!!!
~We have an awesome parent co-op
homeschooling program where
they get to go to "school" at our 
church every Friday! This also
provides field trips every month
and class parties and very importantly
a support system!
~I can incorporate daily therapeutic activities
for Alaina to improve her independence.
~I will have to stay involved, because
I am the teacher so if I don't do it 
nobody will. In all honesty I have 
found that while Alaina has been
enrolled in school as much as I want
to stay involved, I sometimes let
things slide because I know she is
getting it at school. I don't like
that I do this, but it is reality.

All in all the only down side to this that
I see is lack of time for myself!
This is a huge thing, but the more I pray
about it and talk to my husband about
it. The more I feel that it is right for our

If you homeschool or don't I would
love to hear why or why not
and your thoughts and possible resources!
****Please remember that I have nothing
against teachers/aides, public
or private schools. I really do
think that MOST of them are amazing
people at what they do! This is just
how I feel with my kids, not yours :)****

***If you made it through this I promise belly pictures to come this weekend :)***

Monday, February 15, 2010

Half way!

To 30 weeks that is!
Yes when you are laying around
most afternoons you count down the
days! If you ask me how far
along I am I know the week/day
example: last week the doctor asked
how far along I was. The nurse replied
she is 14 weeks. I said 14 weeks 3 days.
Those 3 days matter! A LOT!!!

So yes I did see the doctor 
last Thursday and
everything seems to be going 
well with the pregnancy.

I did develop an anti-body
on my red blood cells!
He referred to it as
having Rh disease.
I am still at a low risk for
transferring anything
to the baby, but we are
waiting for Jeremy's blood
results and then I will
be monitored with 
 multiple ultrasounds 
along with monthly blood
work done!
The goal is to hopefully 
not transfer it to the baby, 
but if I do then to 
make sure baby does 
not get too anemic!
 Not necessarily 
serious, but could become

Next visit is on 
Febrary 25th!

I am hoping everything
stays "boring" as my
doctor likes to put it so that
I can go to my friends and
scrapbook for the entire weekend!
I am so hoping that it works out
I need an escape from this couch
and I would love to
get some stuff done on
our scrapbooks!

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

In Case You were Wondering?

The skirt that I recently made
for Addie's birthday.
I found the pattern on Etsy.
and would definitely recommend
purchasing from her!
She is super sweet and I 
always receive my items 
within the week!

This pattern does not have
a "pattern" per say 
but the instructions are
very well written and I would
say that for this you would
definitely need some sewing
So I rate it at a beginner to moderate!
(Maybe leaning more towards the 

Either way if you make this
you will get oodles of 
comments from people
passing by saying how cute
your daughter is :)
It's very rewarding!!!

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Off the Darvocet...

I am now off the lovely
brain cell killing Darvocet
and only on Tylenol about
once a day :)
Let my just start off by saying
a big thanks to those of you
that prayed for me or thought of me
on my surgery day + these following
days that seem to overtake my spirit!

I am very quickly remembering 
how depressing bed rest 
truly is!

I lay around all day,
take about 2-3 naps/day,
sleep in until 10am or later
(only to just take up time)
watch cartoons with my kiddos,
get up to pee, often since that's
about the only thing I can do.
I am actually sneaking down
here to post something and
to check facebook 
(since I don't have a laptop) only to feel a
little bit apart of the world
even though I'm not suppose too!
That's why these are so quick!
(Oh and don't worry I had to get up to
go pee anyways :))

After all of this at night you
would think I would be so well rested
I couldn't sleep!
I am dead tired, every night.
I sleep and have no problem doing

This winter weather is not
making this bed rest thing any easier.
I go to see my OB on Thursday.
So we'll see what he says then?!
Hoping he says I'm off strict
bed rest and that I should
just take it easy!

We'll see! Okay back to the couch!

Friday, February 5, 2010

I'm Home... A Quick Post!

I would love to chat all day,
but I'm on Darvocet and in
some pain.

So to let you know I am home.
On strict bed rest.
Taking pain killers.
Oh the joy!

I slept for 15 1/2 hours!
I'm still tired.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010


I have had a lot of things
on my mind lately!
This pregnancy for one!
I have had a LONG list of
things to do before February 3rd.
Why you ask?
I am scheduled for surgery
tomorrow at 1:00pm
and then will be on
bed rest for 1-2 weeks!
I'm nervous and a little 
scared to be honest.
I know I am in very good hands 
and I have a Savior
who loves me and
wants to take care of
me and take my fears away!
I am praying and trusting
that is all I can do!

The other thing I have
been thinking about A LOT
this week is a couple from
our church were pregnant with
their first born.
She was due on January 25th
and on January 29th sweet
Ella was born and passed away.
My heart is heavy for this couple.
Especially for the mom.
She was my daughters babysitter! 
She is an incredible person and
so sweet!
Thinking of all that she is going 
through right now breaks my heart.
It brings me back to the loss of
my sweet Caylin
and all that we had planned for her.
Being so happy one moment
and then the next your whole world
is rocked to the core and
nothing that anyone does is
going to make it any better!
Instead of picking out nursery items
 you are picking out a casket and
flowers for the funeral.

This song from Tree63
always makes me tear up!
The words are hard to say,
but it is so true to remember to
give God the glory and praise
during the good the bad and the ugly!

"Blessed be your name
In the land that is plentiful
Where the streams of abundance flow
Blessed be your name
Blessed be your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be your name
Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say...
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name
Blessed be your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's all as it should be
Blessed be your name
Blessed be your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be your name
Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say...
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name
You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, Blessed be your name"

Sorry for my rambling...
these things just needed to
be said for my sake.
I will post an update when I can,
probably Thursday!

Monday, February 1, 2010

I Can't Believe It!


 I can't believe my baby is 4!
I can't believe I actually finished that skirt!
I can't believe I actually remembered to
bring all of the decorations and
set them up!
I can't believe I had enough
energy to make cupcakes
the night before!
I can't believe I remembered my camera!
I can't believe I remembered to take pictures
with my camera!
I can't believe how grown up she looks!
I can't believe she did a face plant
on the cement seconds before 
entering Pizza Hut!

We had a fun day and it is
always fun to visit with everyone!
Hope you enjoy these photos
as much as I do :)